Priestess Guidance

Thursday, April 24, 2025

The Bear and the Nightingale



Published: January 10, 2017 by Del Rey

Genres: Fantasy, Historical Fiction, YA, Mythology
Pages: 319
Format: Paperback, bought

    While reading the last part of the book, I was transported back in time. But no, it wasn't back in time. It's that space, that energy, that KNOWING, that we all have in us, always. 

    We like to say we lose it after childhood, that only children are capable of feeling that fairytale energy, that *something* just beneath the surface. It does make it bitter sweet, as an adult, to find it again. Because you only realize you've lost that...magic...when you find it AGAIN. 
    
    And its found in certain books, the kind you rate 5 stars, when you usually only give books at the most 4 stars, and if it was a REALLY good book, 4.5 You find it in the depths of the Forest, when you realize you are slightly farther away from the path than you intended. But yet, you're HOME. 

    Some people say that it's a feeling you can find with being high, with certain drug use. But no... The thing is, we are ALWAYS searching for that feeling. That childhood feeling. It's like a drug, like chasing the dragon. And like the dragon, it's illusory. It will never be caught. Because you can't feel it by CHASING it. 

     "It cannot be found by searching," said Solovey. "You must look away just a little." 

     It's that word that's just at the tip of your tongue. It's that niggling feeling just at the corner of your brain. It's that SOMETHING, that you can't quite remember; you remember just enough to know there's something TO remember, but that's all. 

    It's that time in between waking and dreaming, when you're full of knowing, full of the quality of the dream state. And you try to focus your attention, and you're mind just can't quite comprehend what it's focusing ON. Because it's a vastness. It's nothingness and everything, all at once. 

    It's that truth, right beneath the societal conditioning that we have to cloak ourselves with to live in a society. But we all have it. And this book embodies all of this. I rated this book 5 stars because of this. 

     "You Are too attached to things as they are. You must allow things to be what best suits your purpose. And then they will." 

     "You can't CHANGE it to a brush. Because that would be to believe it is now straw. Just allow it, now, to BE a brush." 

     "Nothing changes, Vasya. Things are, or they are not. Magic is forgetting that something ever was other than as you willed it." 

     "I do not understand DAMNED. You ARE. And because you are, you can walk where you will, into peace, into oblivion, or pits of fire, but you will always choose." 

 


 

Tuesday, March 11, 2025

Sims 3 Lepacy Challenge, Gen 0 - Base Game

     Simis Bachelor and Jocasta Bachelor are Bella Bachelor and Michael Bachelor’s parents. They are pretty traditional, and live in the base game world of Sunset Valley with base game traditions. Simis is a sci-fi author, the owner of the Bachelor’s Nook bookstore, and the lead reporter of the town. Jocastor is a little more than a 1950s stay at home mom. She does have a part-time job at the bookstore, but that’s only because someone needs to be there to manage the place, and Simis is too busy. But Simis and Jocasta have a wholesome relationship, so there is no control between them. 


Simis wants to have the house be worth 200,000 simoleans before he dies, because he wants the family to have a strong foundation. Jocasta loves gardening, and wants to help the wealth of the family by growing perfect produce for self sustainability and wealth. 





    This legacy will also incorporate the store world legacy. This is the order:

Gen 0: Base Game - Simis and Jocasta
Gen 1: World Adventures - Bella, Mortimer, and Michael (mummy)
Gen 2: Riverview - Bella and Mortimer's children (Cassandra and Alexander) possibly a french, chinese, or egyptian child as well.
Gen 3: Ambitions (have a simbot)
Gen 4: Barnacle Bay
Gen 5: Late Night (have child with vampire)
Gen 6: Hidden Springs
Gen 7: Generations (have child with imaginary friend)
Gen 8: Lunar Lakes
Gen 9: Pets (get all pets, and start a legacy with all pets as well.)
Gen 10: Lucky Palms
Gen 11: Showtime (have a child with Genie)
Gen 12: Sunlit Tides
Gen 13: Supernatural (Have a child with a werewolf/fairy/witch, have 2 other sims become the two other occults.)
Gen 14: Monte Vista
Gen 15: Seasons (become impregnated by an alien)
Gen 16: Aurora Skies
Gen 17: University (become a plant sim, have a baby plantsim)
Gen 18: Dragon Valley
Gen 19: Island Paradise (become a mermaid, have a baby mermaid)
Gen 20: Midnight Hollow
Gen 21: Into the Future (have plumbot)
Gen 22: Roaring Heights


Sunday, January 19, 2025

Gothic (literary) Subculture

 So new realization of the disconnect between me and others(that I originally thought I would have connected with). When I say Goth/Gothic, I mean the literary subgenre. That's where MY subculture comes from. I don't mean the music subgenre. Gothic literature is the original term. Gothic literature was named for the Gothic architecture.

The term Gothic was coined by Italian artists of the renaissance, who attributed the first original use of the word Gothic (i.e. the Gothic tribes), to the architecture. I did some more digging and research on why, and this kind of circles back around to the fact that the term "goth" means "vandal" "uncivilized".
And we all know that the word "uncivilized" is just a fancy word for those who are shallow and can't think for themselves to degrade anyone who is individualistic and doesn't follow a mindless herd mentality.
If you want to know what is really goth, look at books like Dracula. Goth is it's own genre. Some say that Gothic literature is horror. I disagree. I had to actually look up the dictionary definition of horror: Noun - an intense feeling of fear, shock, or disgust. In books like Dracula, I don't get any of those feelings. What I do get is a sense of awe, a sense of beauty, a sense of wonder. Go to a Gothic cathedral and stare up. Do you feel fear? Disgust? What do you feel? That's what true Gothic is. That's what true Gothic literature, music, clothing, lifestyle, etc. should invoke.
For me, if it's for shock value, it's being a poseur/attention seeking, etc.
Also, I think the reason why people fear something that is actually beautiful, such as Gothic literature, is because as a society we are conditioned to fear our emotions. We are conditioned to think that crying always means something is wrong, and you need to "fix" it right away. To some, the sense of awe can feel like fear/anxiety if they don't have any emotional intelligence and maturity. Next time something feels too intense for you, stop and wonder, "am I actually afraid, or am I just feeling emotions that I'm unfamiliar with?"
*Gothic cathedral and my current favorite version of Dracula*





Lectio Divina

 Here is a quote from my Lectio Divina I did today:

"“Seeped into the mainstream”. THIS. This right here. It’s ridiculous. They make so many spiritual and religious and cultural, IMPORTANT things, into a laughing stock marketable gimmick and toy. That’s why these annoying cookie-cutter dudes look down on these things and don’t take it seriously. I wouldn’t either if I didn’t have the research and study I have under my belt."
Things like "moon child", astrology, rituals, even the Gods themselves, are thrown about in media and are taken and adopted by these people who have NO IDEA what they mean, or any truth about them except for what is shown on TikTok, magazines, celebrities, movies, etc.
This also happens with psychotherapeutic things as well. Real terminologies become "buzzwords" and are thrown about everywhere, so when it is something actually serious, now everyone already has a connotation that it's NOT that serious, or it's a type of "crying wolf" trope, and now real victims and people who need real help are overlooked/ignored.
Liberals perpetuate this shit, and conservatives take it and believe it.

Sunday, December 8, 2024

Unmasking the Truth: Yoga, Buddhism, and Eastern Religions Are More Than “Just Philosophies”

 “Yoga is just stretching.”

“Buddhism is just a philosophy.”
“Eastern traditions are ways of life, not real religions.”

These are statements many of us have heard, and perhaps even believed at some point. But these perspectives are not only inaccurate, they are also rooted in Western-centric assumptions about what constitutes a "real religion."

The truth is, systems like Yoga, Buddhism, Taoism, and other Eastern spiritual practices are not "just philosophies" — they are religions in their own right. They have sacred texts, moral frameworks, rituals, and pathways to spiritual transformation. So, how did they become reduced to "philosophies" in Western discourse, and why does this distinction matter?


The Western Definition of Religion: A Narrow Box

To understand why Yoga and other Eastern systems are dismissed as "philosophies," we have to look at how the West defines religion. The Western idea of religion is often influenced by Christianity and other Abrahamic faiths. For something to "count" as a religion in this framework, it must have:

  • A central deity or god figure,
  • A codified set of scriptures,
  • Formal worship practices (like weekly services), and
  • A clear line between the sacred and the secular.

Hinduism, Buddhism, and Taoism often don't fit neatly into this box. For instance, Buddhism doesn't revolve around a singular god, and yoga isn't necessarily practiced in a temple or church. But this doesn't mean they aren't religious systems. They have all the elements of religion — just in different forms.

Hinduism, for example, considers yoga a spiritual discipline to achieve union with the divine (Brahman). Yoga isn't just about physical postures (asana) but also about breath control (pranayama), moral observances (yamas and niyamas), meditation (dhyana), and ultimately, self-liberation (moksha). These are deeply spiritual goals. Similarly, Buddhism offers an Eightfold Path — a guide for living that includes moral conduct, mindfulness, and wisdom, all leading to enlightenment (nirvana).

Western frameworks, however, often overlook these elements because they don't resemble the structure of Christianity or other "familiar" religions. As a result, practices like meditation, yoga, and mindfulness are extracted from their spiritual roots and marketed as wellness trends.


The Impact of Western Reductionism: From Sacred to Secular

Why did the West feel the need to strip the "religion" label from these Eastern traditions? Part of it comes down to colonization, Orientalism, and cultural commodification. When colonizers encountered Eastern systems, they couldn't (or wouldn't) recognize them as "proper" religions. They categorized them as "philosophies" or "primitive spiritual systems" to maintain a perceived cultural superiority.

This reductionism continues today in the modern wellness industry. Yoga is packaged as fitness, not faith. Meditation is seen as a mental health tool, not a religious practice. Buddhism is praised for its "life advice," but its deeper spiritual truths are glossed over. This shift allows Western audiences to consume these practices without engaging with their cultural or religious roots. It makes it easier to "adopt" yoga without reflecting on Hinduism, or practice meditation without acknowledging Buddhism.

This is why you’ll see meditation apps offering "mindfulness exercises" with zero mention of Buddhism, despite the fact that mindfulness (or sati) is a core Buddhist practice. Similarly, yoga classes emphasize “mind-body connection” but rarely teach the Eight Limbs of Yoga, which include ethical precepts like non-violence (ahimsa) and truthfulness (satya).

By stripping these practices of their religious elements, the West can sell them as trendy self-improvement tools. But this also strips them of their depth, power, and authenticity.


Why This Distinction Matters

You might be wondering: Why does it matter if we call yoga a philosophy instead of a religion? Why not let people use yoga however they want?

Here’s why it matters:

  1. Cultural Appropriation and Erasure
    When a religious system is commodified into "just a philosophy," its cultural and spiritual context is erased. It becomes a product, something to be bought and sold. For Hindus and Buddhists, this erasure is deeply painful. Imagine if Christian prayer or Muslim fasting were marketed as "mindfulness hacks" for self-improvement. The disrespect would be obvious, but for Eastern traditions, it often goes unnoticed.

  2. Spiritual Bypassing
    By treating yoga, meditation, and mindfulness as quick-fix solutions for stress and anxiety, people bypass the deeper work of self-transformation. Yoga is not just physical stretching; it's a path toward enlightenment. Buddhism isn't just life advice; it's a way of ending suffering. When people ignore these deeper aspects, they miss the true power of these systems.

  3. Religious Integrity
    Calling yoga a "fitness routine" is like calling baptism a "cleansing bath." It reduces something sacred into something shallow. Respecting these systems as religions means acknowledging their wholeness, not just picking out the parts we like.


Reclaiming the Sacred: How We Can Do Better

So, how can we shift our understanding and start honoring these systems for what they are?

  1. Use the Right Language
    Instead of calling yoga a "philosophy," call it a spiritual path. Instead of calling mindfulness a "stress-relief technique," recognize it as a core Buddhist practice. Language shapes perception, and using respectful language helps restore dignity to these practices.

  2. Acknowledge the Source
    If you practice yoga or mindfulness, learn about its origins. Recognize that these aren't "universal wellness tools" — they have roots in Hinduism, Buddhism, and other Eastern systems. If you benefit from these practices, give credit where it's due.

  3. Deepen Your Practice
    If you engage with yoga or meditation, consider learning about their spiritual dimensions. Study the Eight Limbs of Yoga, not just the asanas. Learn about Buddhist teachings on compassion, suffering, and the Four Noble Truths. Instead of just practicing, connect with the deeper wisdom that these systems offer.

  4. Support Indigenous Voices
    Follow and support teachers who are rooted in the original traditions of these practices. Many Hindu, Buddhist, and Indigenous teachers are working to reclaim these spiritual systems from Western commodification. Their voices deserve to be heard.


Final Reflections

Yoga is not just a workout. Meditation is not just a "mental health hack." Buddhism is not just "life philosophy." These are religions with deep spiritual meaning, sacred texts, and pathways to liberation.

When the West reduces them to "philosophies," it erases their religious essence. It makes them easier to sell, but it also strips them of their authenticity and power.

The next time you hear someone say, "Yoga is just stretching," or "Buddhism is just philosophy," you’ll know better. These systems deserve to be seen for what they are: sacred, whole, and worthy of reverence.

By honoring the full religious context of Yoga, Buddhism, and other Eastern paths, we can approach them with the respect, gratitude, and depth they deserve. We don't have to "extract" their benefits to appreciate them. We can engage with them in a holistic way — body, mind, and spirit.

If you’ve benefited from these practices, consider taking a step back and asking, How can I honor the traditions that made this possible? The answer may lead you deeper than you ever expected.


What do you think? Have you experienced this shift in perspective? Leave a comment and share your story. Your reflections are always welcome.

Saturday, December 7, 2024

The Rise, Reign, and Evolution of YA: How Young Adult Fiction Transformed Modern Literature

 Introduction

For 15 years, the Young Adult (YA) category has been a dynamic, ever-changing force in publishing. But how did YA evolve from a niche section in libraries to a cultural phenomenon beloved by teens and adults alike? And why does it feel like YA is changing again? This article explores the history, growth, and current transformation of YA, offering insight into its past, present, and future.


1. The Birth of YA: From “Good for the Kids” to a Hybrid Haven

Not so long ago, bookstores had two main sections for readers: Children’s and Adult. Libraries sometimes offered a "Teen" section, but it was mostly stocked with books about "real-life issues" — think family problems, friendship conflicts, or "coming-of-age" narratives. These books were meant to be "Good for the Kids" — stories that were moral, educational, and wholesome.

That all changed in the early 2000s. A new type of book started appearing on the shelves — stories that were too gritty for Children’s books but too playful or fast-paced for Adult Fiction. These books featured foster kids battling demons, teens navigating family trauma while cavorting with fairies, and awkward first loves wrapped up in quirky rom-com adventures. This new breed of fiction didn’t fit into Children’s or Adult categories, and so YA was born.


2. The Golden Age of YA (2008-2012): The Boom of Genre-Bending, Blockbusters, and Bestsellers

By the time Twilight (2005) and The Hunger Games (2008) exploded in popularity, the YA category was no longer a quiet corner of the bookstore — it had become a cultural powerhouse. YA was no longer "just for teens." In fact, adults (aged 30-44) began buying YA in droves.

Why? YA was offering something fresh:

  • Tough Issues with a Twist: Stories that explored identity, mental health, and family struggles — but with magic, fantasy, or speculative elements blended in.
  • Relatable Characters: Teen protagonists were experiencing growth, self-discovery, and first love, themes that adults found just as compelling as teens.
  • Fast-Paced, Story-Driven Plots: Unlike "adult literary fiction," which often prioritized style over story, YA prioritized story-forward narratives filled with action, romance, and emotion.
  • Cross-Media Appeal: With adaptations like Harry Potter, The Hunger Games, and Twilight hitting theaters, more adults were pulled into YA. If a book had “movie potential,” it had "bestseller potential" too.

Authors like Suzanne Collins, Maggie Stiefvater, and John Green became household names. YA became a chimera of genres — speculative fiction, romance, and contemporary issues — and this blend attracted not just teens but also adult fantasy, romance, and thriller readers. With crossover readers came bigger sales, and YA books moved from cheap paperbacks to hardcovers, allowing authors and publishers to invest in more ambitious, genre-bending projects.


3. The Coming of Age: From “Category” to “Genre”

At first, YA was a category, meaning it was defined by its audience (teens). But as time went on, YA became something more: a genre with its own distinct storytelling style and traits.

Here are the hallmarks that defined YA during its "golden years" (2008-2017):

  • First-Person, Character-Driven Narratives: Most YA stories are told in first-person, creating an intimate connection with the protagonist's voice.
  • Action-Heavy Plots: Unlike slow, introspective adult fiction, YA tends to favor action and forward momentum.
  • Romance-Heavy Storylines: Romance became a cornerstone of YA, with "book boyfriends" dominating fan conversations online.
  • Trope-Awareness: YA leaned into tropes like "the chosen one," "enemies-to-lovers," and "found family" while also being self-aware enough to deconstruct them.
  • Politically Progressive Themes: YA embraced diversity, LGBTQ+ stories, and narratives centered on social justice, making it feel more inclusive and "woke" than traditional adult genres.
  • Stunning Covers: YA book covers became works of art, using bold typography, foil details, and rich, eye-catching colors.

By 2012, more than half of YA book sales were to adults. This had a profound effect on the industry. No longer did authors need to ask, “What do teens want to read?” They simply had to ask, “What do I want to read?” — and since most YA authors were adults, this created a shift toward more adult-appealing storylines, tropes, and marketing.


4. The Saturation Point: When YA Had Too Much "Baking Powder" (2018-2020)

Like a muffin with too much baking powder, YA eventually began to collapse under its own growth. Why?

  1. Oversaturation of Trends: With so many YA books being released, it became hard for readers to keep up. Many releases started looking "samey," with similar covers, similar plots, and similar tropes.
  2. Readers Outgrew the Market: Many readers who grew up on Twilight and The Hunger Games moved on to adult genres like fantasy, romance, and thrillers — especially when their favorite YA authors started writing for adults (like Leigh Bardugo with Ninth House).
  3. Blurred Genre Lines: YA conventions were so successful that they bled into adult genres. Fantasy, romance, and thrillers now had the same first-person narration, fast pacing, and love triangles that made YA famous. Fourth Wing (2023) is a prime example. Ten years ago, it would have been marketed as YA. Today, it’s marketed as adult fantasy.

The end result? YA stopped being "special." The things that made YA unique — romance, fantasy, action, emotional intimacy, and progressive themes — were now available in adult books. As readers and authors “aged up,” the boundaries of YA blurred.


5. The Legacy of YA: How It Changed Literature Forever

While YA may no longer be the unstoppable market force it once was, its legacy is undeniable. It transformed publishing, and its influence is seen everywhere in modern genre fiction. What YA gave us, mainstream adult fiction kept.

YA's Lasting Impact:

  • In Romance: The intimacy, emotional connection, and "book boyfriend" trope migrated into adult contemporary romance.
  • In Fantasy: New adult fantasy, like Fourth Wing, retains the fast pacing, found family, and romantic tension that YA perfected.
  • In Thrillers: Thrillers now feature faster plots, younger protagonists, and more female leads, traits inherited from YA.

YA did its job. It shook up publishing norms, expanded genre boundaries, and drew in readers from all walks of life. While readers have moved on, they took the best of YA with them. The books they’re buying today — fantasy, romance, thrillers — are still shaped by the YA values they grew up with.


Conclusion

YA has always been a shapeshifter. What began as a small, hybrid space for teens who craved more than "Good for the Kids" fiction evolved into a cultural juggernaut. It inspired billion-dollar film franchises, invited adults to the table, and changed the publishing industry. Now, as adults shift back to fantasy, romance, and thrillers, YA's golden age might feel like it’s behind us — but its values live on.

Where YA goes from here is anyone’s guess. But one thing is certain: YA didn’t just change the shelves. It changed fiction itself.

Thursday, November 14, 2024

Quote of the day - From Turn of Darkness

Turn of Darkness is my upcoming debut novel, set to go live Ostara of 2025. Prepare for a dark and dangerously gothic romance filled with courtly intrigue, vampyres, and morally dark grey men. Villain gets the girl. Lovers to enemies...to lovers? She falls first, he falls harder. Dream stalking. Obsession. Touch her and die. Possibly others, but I think you get the gist. Basically, my dream *swoon*. 

Want a sneak peek of my prose and writing style? Perhaps you're interested in the gothic atmosphere of this story. 

Either way, take a look at the first 3 paragraphs for Turn of Darkness: (unedited)

    The dark cobblestone roads reflected the moonlight off their damp surfaces, creating enough light for me to see as I strolled towards the Athenaeum, taking in the ethereal mist clinging to the ground as if it were a veil to the hidden world lying parallel to this one. As I moved, the haze clung to my ankles, cool and moist, leaving a slick trail of dew on my boots.

         I reached out, letting the moisture settle on my fingertips, feeling as if I were touching the edge of something otherworldly. The earthy, mossy scent of the cobblestones, slick with fog, reminded me of forgotten times, places where shadows whispered secrets no one else could hear.

         The haunting essence of the landscape around me had possessed me so intensely that I had drawn dangerously close to Blackwood Hall without realizing it. At this hour, I was meant to be in that building, among my peers, sitting at a desk and listening to a stiff-lipped woman drone on about the tragedy of The Darkest Turn in History. 

Are you as excited as I am to read this novel? Make sure to pre-order now so you'll be the first one to receive it as soon as it goes live! 

Pre-Order HERE!

NEW UPDATE: Date has changed to Yule of 2025. Get it as a Yule gift for someone you love, or even better, as a gift for yourself!