Gothic (literary) Subculture

 So new realization of the disconnect between me and others(that I originally thought I would have connected with). When I say Goth/Gothic, I mean the literary subgenre. That's where MY subculture comes from. I don't mean the music subgenre. Gothic literature is the original term. Gothic literature was named for the Gothic architecture.

The term Gothic was coined by Italian artists of the renaissance, who attributed the first original use of the word Gothic (i.e. the Gothic tribes), to the architecture. I did some more digging and research on why, and this kind of circles back around to the fact that the term "goth" means "vandal" "uncivilized".

And we all know that the word "uncivilized" is just a fancy word for those who are shallow and can't think for themselves to degrade anyone who is individualistic and doesn't follow a mindless herd mentality.

If you want to know what is really goth, look at books like Dracula. Goth is it's own genre. Some say that Gothic literature is horror. I disagree. I had to actually look up the dictionary definition of horror: Noun - an intense feeling of fear, shock, or disgust. In books like Dracula, I don't get any of those feelings. What I do get is a sense of awe, a sense of beauty, a sense of wonder. Go to a Gothic cathedral and stare up. Do you feel fear? Disgust? What do you feel? That's what true Gothic is. That's what true Gothic literature, music, clothing, lifestyle, etc. should invoke.

For me, if it's for shock value, it's being a poseur/attention seeking, etc.

Also, I think the reason why people fear something that is actually beautiful, such as Gothic literature, is because as a society we are conditioned to fear our emotions. We are conditioned to think that crying always means something is wrong, and you need to "fix" it right away. To some, the sense of awe can feel like fear/anxiety if they don't have any emotional intelligence and maturity. Next time something feels too intense for you, stop and wonder, "am I actually afraid, or am I just feeling emotions that I'm unfamiliar with?"

*Gothic cathedral and my current favorite version of Dracula*

Lectio Divina

 Here is a quote from my Lectio Divina I did today:

"“Seeped into the mainstream”. THIS. This right here. It’s ridiculous. They make so many spiritual and religious and cultural, IMPORTANT things, into a laughing stock marketable gimmick and toy. That’s why these annoying cookie-cutter dudes look down on these things and don’t take it seriously. I wouldn’t either if I didn’t have the research and study I have under my belt."

Things like "moon child", astrology, rituals, even the Gods themselves, are thrown about in media and are taken and adopted by these people who have NO IDEA what they mean, or any truth about them except for what is shown on TikTok, magazines, celebrities, movies, etc.

This also happens with psychotherapeutic things as well. Real terminologies become "buzzwords" and are thrown about everywhere, so when it is something actually serious, now everyone already has a connotation that it's NOT that serious, or it's a type of "crying wolf" trope, and now real victims and people who need real help are overlooked/ignored.

Liberals perpetuate this shit, and conservatives take it and believe it.